May it is!

Yesterday, I cleaned my room - where cleaning meant not only by sweeping and mopping but by removing all the stuff and wiping all the dusts that’s been sitting everywhere - after a year of ignoring it.

I decided to get rid of the book shelf whose duty was to display my nursing books and leftover school supplies but now is only gathering dusts. It also made me think of what to do with all those school stuffs which were eventually passed down to my sister who is still in high school.

That leaves me with the nursing books and notebooks. For the last time, I browsed my notes and got disappointed with what I saw. My hideous handwriting. Seriously, I would love to donate my notes to incoming 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th years but they will not be able to read what’s in there. I can barely even read it yesterday.
My already hideous handwriting plus time-pressured-note-copying equates to a physician-like prescription; unreadable.

I noticed an empty but small drawer in the other room and decided to use that one instead of the bulky book shelf and it’s much easier to clean too.
My nursing books and notebooks almost filled all four compartments leaving only a small space in each enough to store my non-nursing books.

I wasn’t sure until when will I keep those nursing stuff, unless I get rid of them, I will still be haunted by the degree I really don’t want. Until today, an image came to mind where I am burning my notebooks - only the notebooks since I’m still planning to pass on those books - and taking a photo of it.

But the time frame wasn’t now or tomorrow or the day after tomorrow or the following weeks or months. I saw myself shooting a pile of notebooks charring down with my first dSLR. That may sound materialistic but being a professional photographer is just what I want to happen and want to be right now.
Being a pro-tog is just the first step in what I really want to happen in my life. I got a lot of plans branching out after being an established pro photographer.

Reality speaking, I may not be a pro on the moment I got that dSLR but that will be a symbolic moment of change in my life.

To me, the change that I’m waiting for will begin this May.

May it is!

1 May 2 Permalink

Recalling my MOST wasted time in life.

Recalling 2nd-year college..
I was on the verge of shifting course. From BS Nursing to any Art-related course.
Now I am very disappointed that I did not. If that really happened I would probably have my own dSLR now as a compulsory requirement for photography class. I would be a 2nd year student by now, passing art projects, or anything a creative 2nd-year art student would happily do.

I’ve wasted so much of my time. 5 Years of precious time, 5, if you’ll count this year since I am “reviewing” for my “nursing licensure exam” which MOST probably will be useless to me because I won’t be working as a nurse.

“Why take the exam?”, you ask.
To satisfy the people who forced me to have this course.

Pass or Fail, I don’t care.
Only after this year, that I will be choosing what I love to do most. PHOTOGRAPHY.

• First, I will work my ass off as a call center agent, since it has high pay rate.
• work, work, work to fund my first dSLR
• work, work, work to fund additional equipments
• while self-studying/honing my skills
• work, and work and work while freelancing
• work, and work and work until stable.

HOPING the first step will be a breeze.

You are right if you’ll say, “Sacrifice. Work as a nurse, go abroad, then do what you love to do.”

Here is my answer: I can’t afford to waste another set of years…

I HOPE I can get back to this post a couple of years from now and seeing that this plan worked.

1 November 47 Permalink

finally! im back after three days without electricity!
paita aning uyamot.

had fun at OR duty.. too many cases during A.M shift :)

21 May Permalink

a not so good day today..

Now on to what happen today..

Today, is a NOT good day for me. =(

Here’s a bulleted list of why this day sucks:

» Just after laughing about the car that got a testicle, I accidentally stepped on a bubble gum( good thing that it came off before we went back to chai’s ride )

» Right after arriving to school, this CI Ms.Z was blabbering about who were the people who went to a trial court for a hearing. *nag court visit mi kay dismiss nato unya alangan man magtanga mi sa skwelahan nga naa pa man sad mi buhaton sa PolSci!. perteng hasola nga CI!..*

» After the CI b.s. stuff we lim,juliet,gil,bert decided to eat “kwek-kwek”.. then here comes a gust of wind, springkling my remaining two kwek-kweks with dusts. FML >_<

» And to add up for today’s b.s. ..
my handkerchief got lost. well, not actually lost. I accidentally left it on the table at the lobby where we had our orientation for next week’s duty..
worst part? when I came back to ask the Carvel personnel(janitor with a classy name).

Here’s a conversation of my and a g*dd*mn carvel:
Me: “noy kita kag panyo didto sa lamisa?” (sir did you happen to see my handkerchief on that table?)
Carvel-amaw: “ha? wala man… ..” (nope…)
Me: “nge. ana to sila nga gikuha daw nimu..” (the students there said that you have it)
Carvel-amaw: “aw imo diay to?!”
(ow! so it was yours?)
Me: “o oi!..asa naman?” O_o (of course!..where is it?)
Carval-amaw: “aw nalabay na dong! basta unsay mahabilin diha..ilabay jud diretso..” (ow i already threw it.. what we usually found will be thrown away directly)
Me: “aw cge salamat!” *lami-a patyon carvela oi!* (oh..well thanks anyway!..*i would really like to kill you right now d*ck!..)

b.s. right?
tsk…
the last one just made it perfect to worsen my day.
I really feel bad even though it was just a hanky..
I really value even the smallest or the cheapest stuff..

but if i review my actions well earlier, I was just being clumsy..

1.)accidentally stepped on a bubble gum.

+

2.)accidentally left my handkerchief on the table.

= clumsiness. >_<

Anyway, what’s done is done. have to end this day clumsy-free.

Writing/typing my thoughts about today made me feel better now.

Thanks for reading =)

*listening to “If you have a bad day by Daniel Powter” while typing this entry just to be in the mood*

12 February Permalink